Dear Harper,
It’s 2012 now. Can you feel it? This year, I want to have even more fun with you. I want to go out on a whim, explore new places together, and laugh our heads off. This past weekend, we wanted to let your Dad sleep in so we took off to the Austin Zoo for the first time with our friends Cara and Posey. I’d never been to the Austin Zoo and hadn’t heard the best things about it but we decided at the last minute to go find out what it was all about. The first thing we were witness to was a monkey drinking it’s own pee. We also saw our fair share of blind pigs, one eyed cats, and more wolf hybrids than you could ever hope to see. I absolutely loved spending the morning with just you and watching you love everything. Well, except the lions. As soon as they started roaring you said, “I want to go home. The lions are trying to get me and they are too scary for me.” Besides that, you were an absolute joy and even let the goats eat straight from your hand.

Speaking of eating and goats, you are a terrible eater. This is something that’s plagued you since as long as I can remember. You take two bites of something and then you are done or sometimes, you don’t even take a single bite. It’s constantly frustrating and an inner battle to not freak the heck out every time you say, “All done” with not even a spoonful missing. I’m trying to relax about it at all times because you are little and healthy and if you are starving, you’ll eat. But really, it’s something that gets under our skin almost every day. So, at the zoo, we had pb&j sandwiches. You took about three bites and then said you were all done. I wasn’t going to fight you so we started making our way to the goats to feet them their little foods. I gave you one to carry and you said, “I’ll eat goat food?!” I said okay to you because really, if I can’t force you to eat a french fry on most days then what was the chance of you eating a piece of animal food?

You put it in your mouth and you chewed. And you said it was tasty and swallowed it. And I was in such shock that all I could do was laugh my head off and think about how you’ve got to be, hands down, one of the weirdest little kids ever.

You say and do the most hilarious things. Like most parents, I think my child is the smartest child in the universe. But really Harper, you do seem pretty darn smart and on with your comedic timing. Last night at dinner you pointed at your Dad and said to me, “That guy likes french fries.” Never in your life have you referred to your Dad as a guy or especially that guy but last night, you did, and it was the funniest thing I’d heard in awhile. And also true, he really does like french fries.

You are absolutely obsessed with, “The Little Mermaid” right now. When you were at your grandparent’s over the holidays, you watched it every day on their VHS. You came home and every day, you asked to watch it and I had to explain that we don’t own it. About a week later, I realized I should see if I could find it to watch on the computer. You about lost it when the opening credits came on. Since then, we’ve borrowed the movie from John and he gave us the sequel as well, much to your delight. Harper, The Little Mermaid 2 is one of the worst movies I’ve ever seen and it’s ALL you want to watch right now. Literally, you wake up and the first thing you ask is if you can watch the mermaid movie with the baby. And before bed, that’s the last thing you want to do. And pretty much every hour in between, it’s Little Mermaid. I am hoping this phase moves along super quickly because I’m not a big fan of the mermaid franchise. The only good thing to come of this is how you sing the, “Aaaaaaaah, aaa aaa ahhhhhh”. I like to tease you and sing it way wrong and have you correct me. You have a sweet little voice.

The other day, you were throwing a fit. We had plans in the morning but I could not, for anything, get you to leave the house. You cried, you whined, you were not having it. You told me that you would go after nap time and that you promised, so I gave in. When you woke up from your nap, I told you that it was time to go. Holy crap, you freaked out. I told you very calmly that you promised and that we switched plans around to satisfy you and how we needed to follow through. You started flapping your arms (you do that when you are freaking out and it makes me crazy) and crying as hard as you could. I just sat there beside you, calmly, staring straight ahead of me.

After you had calmed down and you could tell how unhappy and frustrated I was, you started cuddling me and looking up at me with puppy dog eyes. When I didn’t smile, you started petting me and smiling and hugging me some more. When I didn’t smile, you said, “Okay, let’s go! You can be happy at me!”

I WON.

I love you. I love you so much. I love you every day, forever and ever, amen.