So, life has been changing. Changing and moving and turning in to something that I wasn’t really ready for but when am I ever going to be ready?
Taylor quit his job. As of a week ago, we are both self employed and working toward fulfilling our dreams.
Honestly, I’m a ball of emotions and it depends what day of the week it is for how I would answer, “How are you?” Taylor’s been working toward, as hard as he could, being a full time musician and making a living off of his music. And over the past year, it felt like it was getting more and more serious. We’ve been balancing my job and the demands of it along with him being gone most weekends. It’s been tiring. And then talks started happening of trying to go for it, for real. It’s been building since March, the “what if’s?” and the “how do we actually do this?” and the endless conversations that go along with such a huge life change. There’s been crying. For me, there’s been a lot and lot of crying. And honestly, there’s been fighting. Taylor and I regularly do not fight. But him quitting his job and the future being so unknown has been doing crazy things to me, emotionally, and has me more stressed out and worrying than I have been in a long time.
But it all came down to.. making music full time is his dream. And he’s a hard worker. And he’s smart and he would never do anything to put his family in jeopardy. And frankly, this is the time to do it.
So, he quit his job. And he begins his new life of touring demands. And I begin my life of trying to figure out how to make this all make sense.
That’s what’s going on and it’s pretty consuming.
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Leah I have been reading your blog for a few years now. I kept reading over the years, because you have such gorgeous photos (I myself pursue photography) and you write from such a happy, optimistic look on life. About a month ago, I realized my friends from the band The Juliets, were playing alongside Quiet Company in NYC. Fully realizing how weird and oddly creepy it is to have seen photos of Taylor and then see him walking around in the same venue, I still went up and introduced myself. He was so incredibly nice, and QC played an awesome set.
I know its super hard to have your partner be a musician, due to the grueling schedule and touring, etc. I myself dated a musician for 3 years. But as your reader and a music loving fan, there is nothing better than seeing the one you love fully commit to their dreams, and Taylor is very lucky to have you a wife, because you’re seriously bad-ass. I’m rooting for you guys!
-Emily, NYC
By Emily on 10.19.12 12:02 pm | Permalink
If anyone can do it, you guys can. For real.
By Teresa on 10.19.12 10:20 pm | Permalink
<3
By kelly on 10.21.12 2:46 pm | Permalink
You two are both so dedicated, so uniquely talented, and so very in love. Things work out the way they’re supposed to. I’m sure you guys will be able to make this happen the way you want it to
By Shannon on 10.21.12 8:07 pm | Permalink
You both are SO BRAVE. We have not been so brave. You two are very much in love and I know you can do this. You have wonderful Harper always around to remind you of this <3
By Amber on 10.24.12 11:21 am | Permalink
you have a very narrow window before life’s fears take over. You are a photographer and Taylor is a musician. You are probably a great office worker and Taylor is probably a good educator but you would do a dis-service to Harper by having to say I took the easy path because of you. We gave up dreams because of you. We settled into boring complacency to give you a middle class life. Yes it will be difficult. Rice and beans instead of the new iphone. Lonely nights away from each other but in the end, it will work out because you trust in each other… you believe in each other… and you both know that if you were told that you can never do the thing you love to do, your soul would whither away leaving the husk of what you once were. Awake and moving but empty and bitter. And the truth be told there are many people that would rally around if you got into a situation that put your family in jeopardy. You are never alone. Chin up little angel. There are greater things than this to fear in this world and you have the moxie to overcome any really big problem that may come of this.
By Michael on 11.01.12 4:23 am | Permalink
All of your comments were so sweet and welcome and needed. Thank you, nice readers.
By Leah on 11.01.12 4:46 pm | Permalink
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